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Name: Anna
Gender: Female
Interests: Drawing, doodling, painting, sketching, animating, thinking, reading, writing, eating, sleeping, laughing, lazing, playing, listing verbs with "ing" at the end
Expertise: Living
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AIM:  darthzim
Member Since:
10/15/2005
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| I M IN CLASZZZ ANDWEER NOT LERNIN NUTHIN
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| Often times, I wonder what other people are thinking about when they make a decision. Are the benefits and consequences taken into account? Long term or short term? How it will affect their day, week, year, life, for themselves and others...everything we do will eventually shape our lives and what kind of people we turn out to be. Each choice alters the future we will end up building. Different people will approve or disapprove of such choices and can endure or deny us based on this.
Sometimes it's easy to dismiss and excuse ourselves because we want to indulge and "enjoy" what life presents us. Often times though, when I look back on things I've done, a sacrifice could have been made and that would have been far more rewarding and less painful to remember. There's a sense of relief in knowing that we can do the right thing in a suspenseful time instead of taking the easy way out.
I really hate trying to make myself feel better with weak reasoning and excuses. Simply saying something is alright because other people do it doesn't console me at all, and just makes me feel worse....it means instead of observing this and learning what to do or not do, I've fallen into the same pattern.
Hopefully, I'm learning from past mistakes and building a stronger future for myself and those around me.
Sometimes it's hard, though, to tell whether I should remove an aspect of life in order to stay strong in what I want to achieve, or if I should face up to it and learn to deal with it. The latter is much more difficult to execute.
So many questions....guess I'm just obsessed about what's right and wrong. In the end, would I be able to look back on my life as a whole, and say the right choices were made? Do the good decisions make up for the bad ones, or does any bad decision leave a permanent black mark? How much could be forgiven, how much is excusable?
Maybe it's not worth thinking about when I can't change the past anyway, but if I don't remember all the dumb things I've done all my life, I start to forget. After I forget, I get careless and repeat the same mistakes.
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| JENNY. IF YOU'RE READING THIS....
Then this will make sense.
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Is....em, is anyone still on xanga? I think everyone migrated to facebook......
Posting feels really bizarre(Facebook really only has the status and notes instead of entries)! And reading through old entries is also really weird, it feels like I'm reading about a completely different person. I also checked out my xanga before this one, it goes back over four years ago---CRAZY (moreso headache-inducing)!
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| Listen to "Read A Book"
READ A BOOK, READ A BOOK, READ A MUTHAFUCKIN BOOK
R-E-A-D-B-O, OKAY!
BRUSH YO TEETH, BRUSH YO TEETH, BRUSH YO GODDAMN TEETH
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